4.03 Pretty Red Balloon The Mentalist rewatch
I think every time Jane gets a hug from a woman in front of Lisbon, he can’t help himself and always turns his head to check her reaction. I think a part of him feels guilty, embarrassed, vulnerable, but also curious because she’s watching the whole thing. He’s looking at her, thinking: “What does she think of me now? Does she care? Is she jealous?”
Even at this point, when he couldn’t allow himself to admit how much she meant to him, he can’t help it, he needs to look at her. To me, that’s what he’s been doing throughout the whole show, from the beginning. He is constantly searching for signs that she cares about him, at least a bit. Here he may not be ready to think too deeply about his own feelings and how much he actually loves her, but there’s a small comfort for him in thinking that she may have feelings for him too.